Zack Neil
Western Illinois University
Western Illinois University
"Next year all our troubles will be miles away"
Holiday lights are coming off doors, trees are being tossed to
their wintery graves, and radio stations are turning back to the tunes
of the regular year but one song keeps playing in my mind (if you are a
Judy Garland fan or have heard one of the many renditions) you may know
the song "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas"). Particularly this
winter break I have been trying to make sense of cover letters, talking
to my partner and family about where I am thinking of searching, calling
up some contacts, Facebook messaging cohort members etc. I think about
the idea that next year this will all be but a distant memory.
The job search will happen and I feel comfort knowing that there is no
right way to go about it. What would make me feel unprepared is if I did
not know myself or my practice moving into this search. Though I know I
will never be truly 'finished' in knowing myself, I have confidence
that my heart is in the right place in helping students learn (as I'm
sure many of my colleagues across the land do too!)
"Faithful friends who are dear to us gather near to us once more"
Speaking of hearts, I appreciate the gifts of feedback of
older practitioners, friends, almost strangers, and professors but what
is important to me is knowing that I have people cheering for me to
move forward through this search. I call them 'gifts' because sometimes
gifts are broken, do not make sense, are inappropriate, or simply not
wanted. Those gifts are as good as the ones that do work and are helpful
because they are like reminders of what I truly believe. I think what
is important for me is knowing that someone is there with some interest
in me and my search. I have learned a lot about myself through two years
in graduate school, but one thing I have learned is the power of
perseverance and to appreciate the allies that have been with me through
thick and thin. Come to think of it, Judy Garland usually played
characters where she has needed some sort of help ("Wizard of Oz" comes
to mind). It would be lovely if we all had a scarecrow, a man made of
tin, and a lion skipping with us through this search. But perhaps those
people are there already! Something I wonder for those going through
a search is: who is around to give you both a shoulder to lean on and a hand to high five when you do get that job offer?
"We have to muddle through somehow"
This search will be hard and there are helpful people around, but now it is time to not trust the process.
To me, the process of resume-writing, going to a placement conference,
doing interviews, etc. leaves out a very important ingredient: me. Even
when I am sometimes overwhelmed with contrasting perspectives and being
overloaded with too much advice, one thing I know is to not only trust
this 'process' but to trust myself. Perhaps going to a placement
conference is not in the cards for a search or maybe a search right now
is not in someone's best interest. The 'process' is kind of like the
Wizard of Oz: big and powerful that everyone trusts but sometimes
forgets to trust themselves. It is seeing the process and choosing what
is in my best interests. And whether that comes from self exploration or
hearing thoughts of others, it is about me asking myself the question: What are others telling you to do versus what do you truly believe is best for you?
"Let your heart be light"
The last thing I would like to add is simple (and what I am currently working on!): do it.
Own experiences, values, friends, uniqueness, quirks, flaws, and
strengths then do what you need to make this process work for you. If
anything, being home with family this break has reminded me that there
are greater things in this world than a resume or TPE. I think there is
power in being present with the here and now; remembering who and
what is important to me because it will ultimately guide what goes into
my resume and what happens at TPE. For me, it is a balancing act of
reflection and checking off my to-do list for my process. Luckily, I
have a few weeks and a few movies of Judy Garland to get me through! So
next year, as I haul up the ornaments from the basement and light
the candles I may not remember what all transpired in my search- but
what is important to me is that I worked hard in my process, thanked
those that helped me, and was true to myself throughout.
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